I apologize for not posting. For the last two weeks, I’ve been having problems with one eye. Allergies made it collect mucus and swell. It ‘s as gross as it sounds and painful too. But I just cleaned it and took meds. I kept going as best as I could, helping others as much as I could. As if doing stuff, helping others, could get rid of the pain.

It didn’t.

Last Sunday morning though, I was in a lot of pain. I couldn’t even open my eyes. As I laid there, in pain and my family looked for medicine (despite it being Sunday and still needing to go to Church). I wanted to help them, get ready and go to Church. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t see, and the pain, it was even hard to focus on breathing . Eventually, they did find the eye drops. When the eye drops were coming into my eyes, God put the scripture in Luke in my mind.

“Why do you look at the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice or consider the log that is in your own eye?”

Luke 6:41 AMP

With how painful it is to have a speck in my eye, how painful must it be to have a log? How many times do we escape from that pain by looking and focusing on others’ eyes instead of our own?

So many times we look at others, judge others, or focus on helping others just to escape what’s in our own eye, to escape our own pain. But God loves us enough to not let us escape it. He loves us enough to get the medicine for us, and when we’re ready to accept it, He will hold us as He gives the medicine and comfort us when it hurts. Because the medicine did hurt me, and I had to keep doing it. But a week later, there finally isn’t pain.

I could see.

Now, life is not just allergic reactions. It’s full of loss, rejection, bad health. So sometimes a wound (emotional or physical) still might hurt long after we receive it and we’ll need more medicine, but we aren’t alone. God is right there healing and hurting with us just as much as He is helping us.

Life will hurt, change is a LOT to get used to, but God will be with us through it all. Even when we decide to escape the pain and reject the medicine, He is waiting for us. He wants to love and heal us. If we truly lay everything before Him and let Him see us as we are, in pain and with many specks or logs.